Posting again?

It's been MONTHS since I posted anything. I kind of miss it.

This past summer was very. . .interesting.

My heart finally gave up on the one I loved in the beginning of the summer.

I headed for my trip to Vietnam/China/Hong Kong.

It was an amazing trip. Despite the 14 hour flight there and 12 hour flight back, I enjoyed the other side of the world. It was extraordinary. My very first trip to the other side of the world. So I have visited 2/7 continents. 5 more to go. I hope Europe is next.

Then my heart slowly crept back to the one I loved. No matter how much I pull away from him, I snap back and fall head-over-heels for him all over again.

Now, I still love him so much, though I don't think he feels the same. But I have stuck with the quote
"Love is patient; love is kind
and envies no one.
Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude;
never selfish, not quick to take offense.
There is nothing love cannot face;
there is no limit to its faith,
its hope, and endurance.
In a word, there are three things
that last forever: faith, hope, and love;
but the greatest of them all is love."
== 1 Corinthians 13: 4-13
I will wait until this love naturally disappears, no matter how much it hurts me. I have learned that I cannot force love to go away. My heart won't allow that.

He just doesn't get how much he means to me.

Sometimes I despise myself for truly loving him so much.

P.S.: Hello, Senior year. The last year of high school. The year before we leave off to something bigger, something new. The year where many changes are going to take place.